Hello everyone!
First off, I promise that the next blog post will be fashion/beauty related, the weather was awful today and since I don't have good artificial lighting, I couldn't post pictures with the best quality possible.
For now though, I'll be talking about dreams.
I'm that one friend you have where they constantly tell you about their dreams. I think that this might bore my friends at times, but I keep it pretty interesting.
I don't know about you guys, but I get VERY strange dreams, but they all seem to kind of come back and make sense to what is currently going on in my life. I go through times when I have very many dreams, sometimes up to 5 per night, and then sometimes I don't have/remember my dreams for a good week or so. That's another thing, I'm really good at remembering my dreams, which actually comes in handy because I usually research the meanings behind it.
I know it may seem like mumbo-jumbo, but I truly believe that our dreams have meaning behind them, and I always want to find out what they mean. I studied Psychology in high school, but we barely touched on the dreaming aspect, and because my University doesn't offer a Psychology course (weird, right?), I am left to rely on the internet and learn from there.
I also tell my mom my dreams, and she sometimes has these kind of legends told from generation to generation of family members about what dreams are about and what they mean. Her mother told her these stories that were passed on from her mother, and so on.
Throughout my life, I've been shy and reserved. I grew out of my bubble quickly in Kindergarten, and was able to make friends with everyone, I just didn't let my guard down. Guard meaning that only my best friend knew everything, I was simply acquaintances with everyone else.
It was so bad, that I had a crush on this one guy in Kindergarten, and I specifically brought 3 pieces of candy to school one day (my favourites), one for me, my best friend, and one for him. I vividly remember seeing him playing in the sand pit inside of the classroom (yeah we were cool like that) and pushing myself to giving him the candy, but I chickened out, and ate it myself. That's pleasant, isn't it?
I think this has helped me go through life, as I had avoided much heartache that was bound to happen. Friends came and left, but I never grew too attached. I kind of have this sixth sense, where I can read a person right off of meeting them, and I either let them into my life, or just kind of nicely get them out. Not in a rude sense, I just don't need posers around when they're not necessary.
Quick example, in the seventh grade, this one girl was new to our class, and she gave me this vibe that she wasn't truly as she presented herself. Everyone wanted to be best friends with her, but I stayed away, just kind of on the sidelines. By the time eighth grade had finished, she had betrayed many people that had been so impressed by her in grade seven, as they were so blinded by her contagious personality, that they couldn't see that ounce of... bad behind it.
Many people in my life are opposite to me in that sense, where they are confident and outgoing, and everyone's best friend. In one instance, someone who is extremely loud and funny and confident and every word you can think of to go with those, let the wrong people into their lives, and when they got betrayed, it ruined them for a really long time. They kind of went into hibernation and it had taken them a long time to return to normal, seeing as their heart had truly broken from the betrayal of a "best friend".
These are the kind of things I avoided, but nothing can really help you get around this feeling of utter abandonment, and it unfortunately happened to me about a year ago.
Hi everyone!
My name is Aleks, and I'm an aspiring YouTuber for anything that has to do with fashion and beauty.
The reason I'm creating this blog is to be able to write out my feelings and such, and move on past just the fun and flashy beauty world. I'll be writing posts about things relevant to my life, so to let you know a bit about myself, so I thought I'd share a bit here.
I'm 18 years old. Almost. My birthday is on the 27th of December (I was born in the year 1995), so I'm always the last for everything when it comes to being able to get your license, being able to vote, all those things that come with age.
PS: Even though I could've gotten my G1 (the first level of getting your license in Ontario) about 2 years ago, I have yet to go get that done due to basic laziness. It's not healthy and my mother never ceases to repeat this to me on a daily basis. Sorry, mom :)
I live in Ontario, Canada. No, I don't have the typical Canadian accent, I have my strong Serbian roots to thank for that.
I'm currently attending University, doing my undergraduate studies, but my main goal is to eventually get to law school. Being a Corporate Lawyer is my dream. I even got the name of "Supreme Scammer" because of how good I was in mock negotiations. Long story, I might get to it someday.
I've been watching YouTube videos since they came out, but my first memories include watching videos about Ella Fitzgerald in music class in Grade 6, as well as hearing about funny videos via my friends, including Smosh's first really viral one about a brick being a stepstool? I forget the name, and then the Muffins and Shoes videos done by that one guy. Those were the days.
Do you see what I mean about life? I often stray off of one topic, and lead into the other, so I created this blog to be able to express my opinion about things going on in life, or just let you know about interesting or funny things that I encounter.
Don't get me started on embarrassment. I constantly embarrass myself on a daily basis, so many blog posts are sure to come out of that in order to get them off of my chest.
My favourite TV show at the moment is... I don't really know. I guess it could come down to Criminal Minds, or The Carrie Diaries. I am LOVING Girl Code recently, I really want to be apart of that panel, I think I'm a pretty funny person, though my brother often tends to disagree with me there.
I would be downright lying to you if I didn't tell you about my secret obsession for reality TV shows. I know, they are not what most people call "quality TV" but I love watching average people doing crazy things.
Beauty School Drop Outs has to come in at number one, those damn British people (with the exception of one Irish fella) are constantly cracking me up. I think it comes down to me wanting to be more outgoing in life and such.
You see, I've always been shy, and though I do act more confident now, taking drama throughout high school really helped, deep down, I'm still shy. My next blog post will be about this, so I'll leave that there.
By this point, I'm sure people have given up on reading, and I don't resent them for this, I'd have stopped reading the first sentence. I don't have a very long attention span, though I like to fool myself into thinking I do. Just like how I fool myself into thinking I'm not an awkward human being, but I am.
Oh well, that's that, I guess.
I don't know what else to let you know about me, I guess it'll come out at different points in this blog. I am constantly reminding myself of one story through another, I was recently talking to my friend about YouTube and I jumped to making a picture frame for Father's Day in grade 3.
Anywho, I'm off to write that post, I'm getting somewhat inspired.
Thanks to those who've made it this far, and I will hopefully talk to you very soon!
Aleksandra xx
PS: I'm trying to act all cool and mysterious and cheeky and flirty and cute, with those "xx"'s at the end of my name, so please play along :)
oh god, this is going to be one of those posts I look back on and get embarrassed. Oh well.
